Ok. We start here. Now I’m 20 years old. Even it not that old, but for me, I have earn so much experience that make me more matured. Maybe not much experience as others veteran that more than 60 years old. Just I think for a teenagers like me this is such a big situation that I need to handle that also make me matured in go through this life. It is very difficult to handle two problems in one time. More difficult if the problems related to your family. Like I said before, I always be a counselor during my school time. But suddenly, when I was 18, which I just leave my secondary time and don’t think that I will have to faced this situation. One big problem came into our family. Me and my others sibling had a very difficult time together. We need to think of our family, instead of enjoying our honeymoon time with friends. Suppose we just to focus in our study. Not to think this far. In addition, that time none of my friend that can share the same shoes with me. Most of them say to me that this is a faith. Why it is so difficult for them to understand my situation. I does not ask them to solve my problem. I just need a shoulder that time. Luckily, I have my family. They make me calm and try to think out of the box. Maybe it is because we share a same shoes. Since that, I make a conclusion, “family first, friend will be the last one”. I don’t really understand my friend, when I share my problem with them, that person will act differently as before. At first, I try to avoid the statement. But, after some test on different person I got the same output. Hence I believe 100% on my statement and take my conclusion as a part of my life. You guys surely want to know what I have done to test on my hypothesis. Hahahahaha. At first, I tell my problem to my very best friend. Guest what? It make my hypothesis accepted. Then I try on my old time friend that is not really close, just a door mate for 1 year.Still same result as before. Not supportive at all. Then I try on my ex-classmate. Hurm, she is the only one support me. See!!! Not every best friend is the best for us. So just put away the word of “best friend for ever”, “friends till die” and “friends here and after” or anything else. It actually can’t be expressed with word, it grow silently in our heart. If you guys, don’t believe on me. Try it on your own. Me myself, try to remove all those words from my life and mind. I hate those words. It sometimes make me hurt. =(

all around us...:)

Then, for me, life is depending on environment. When we have a good environment, we will feel good. We will easily get adapted to the environment. Just imagine if we were in a horrible community. It will be difficult for us to cope the environment. Our culture is our life. But, we can actually try to adapt any environment and try to change it to a better culture. We made it. To make people respect our culture, we must respect others culture and make our culture to a best and superb culture. If we don’t have any member that we close to in an environment. As an example, in a small community like class or a club, if we choose wrong member it will make we become more terrible. Here, I will just give a general situation. Soon in my next post, I will write it in a specific situation, to make you more understand on what I’m talking about. So, lastly, for me life will depends on environment very much.

money.....money....MONEY!!!!!!!!

Next my life is depending on money. Like we always heard ‘no money, no talk’. Such an interesting quote. When we don’t have any money, maybe we will die. Because nowadays, everything need to use money. Even to pee we need to pay. If we say, “it’s only 30 cents”. You were wrong. If in one day, we go to public restroom twice, it’s already 60 cents. What with the others. It will make such a big amount. Next, for example, as a student. We already spend about RM10 for our food. No need to talk for the others. You can just imagine what for the others. In this millennium day, I believe we can’t live with only RM100 per month. If we want a money, we must work for it. Not only lay on your bed and wait for the money to fall from your ceiling. It is impossible. The harder you work, the more money you earn. For myself, if I need an extra money, I will sacrifice my day or my rest time to seek for an extra job that can give me money that I need. For example, during a semester break, I will run a small business on homemade chocolates and variety types of bun. Even it is not to profitable, it can help me a little bit on my life. I believe each person have their own way to make money. Is it I’m right? Remember, with our ability, we can make money. Lastly, find a money on a right track. Don’t just simply take a work that profitable but illegal. Blessing is important.