life aq as students tahun satu dah pon berakhir.... hope for the best!! last2 nh memg ramai yg akan lebih mengenali antara satu sama lain.. byk slh faham antre member.. bt aq nh jneis malasla nk layan.. lagi2 lau aq dh ckp aq xnk layan bende kecik2 but dy still gak nk bermuka ngn aq.. memg aq wt bodo jela kn?? hohohho.. bunyi memg cm kejam.. bt cube korang pkir...lau kite asyik nk lyn bende2 kecik..nnt mslh besar kite xtw la jdik besar cmne?? adoi!!!!!! tryla jdik matured skit.. bukn nk ckp aq nnh matured...juts aq twla gak mane maslh besar n mane mslh kecik... xdela nk messy2 kn sgt ngn mslh2 kecik nh.. hm, pada org2 yg xmatured 2...insyaAllah...aq akn cube tok doakn korang spye matured skit.. senang skit idop aq...xdela disushkn oleh kerenah korang tah pape 2.. ok2...4get about it... kwn2....nk nasihat nh...if nk marah org or nk touching2 ngn member..korang pkir dulu... bende 2 kecik ke besar.. jgn dok nk touching je..:P pkir leklok...nnt org menyampah...sape rugi!!!! kita jugak kn??? xde nye org sentiase nk lyn touching kite 2... skali-sekala bolehla...lau dh everyday....bengang gak dibuatnye.. meh aq ajar something...take it or leave it: aq if ada org marah or tauching ngn aq...aq mintak maaf sekali je...then aq akn act normally...aq akn cube 2 ke 3 kali gak la wt2 normal 2.. lainla if mslh besar..mmg aq akn take seriously.bt if mslh kecik...aq wt cm2 jela.. then lau org xnk layn gak...lantakla.. mcmla dy sorang je kwn korang dlm dunia nh..:O lalalalalalala... just nk share...:) suddenly miss this moment...:)

In this post, I will write about my environment. Luckily I have a better environment now. In past I have a very bad environment. With a weird friends all around me, with my family problem that still fresh in my mind. Even that problem is still in my mind, but for me, it’s ok. At least I have a better friends in this new environment. It just difficult for me to have the best one cause I’m a little bit late get in to this environment. But, still ok for me. As I said I does not need a best friend. Enough just a friend. Huhuhuhu, maybe sound weird. But if you read my blog from the first one till now, you will understand more. Ok, in my new environment. I have different type of friends. Some with a good background (don’t have so much problems). Some with moderate (have problems, but not in all aspects). Some is very problematic. All of them have good and contrast. Hihihihi, sorry. That’s me. I love to be alert in people behavior. Sometimes, I can see a person with moderate personality try to be a good one. Doesn’t matter. It just look so hideous when it too obvious that you are trying to be good. What is the problem to be a moderate person. Like I said before, a problematic person is trying to be discard with the environment. Even my own friends did it. They try to ignore one of our friends that are too problematic. As me, I have some feeling that I want to know the truth. So, I will stand all by myself to find it out. You know?? I still don’t have the answer for that person. Totally problematic. Hm, even the others ignore her, I think it not nice for me, that doesn’t have any problems with her to ignore her as well as all my other friends. Even my friends always talk bad about this person, I try to take it positively. Even I said it to my friends, “why not we take it positively, maybe she has her own reasons that we don’t know”. Hahahaha, then all my friends mad with me. Huh!! Ok I will play with the fire again. I will just quiet and listen to those story. I will not elaborate more in this. Just enough for this time I think. KEEP ON FOLLOWING ME K!!! 

We meet again dear readers. Can’t you see what is happening around you. When a people does not have money, he/she would not have friends. When a people is not a good looking person he/ she also would be alone all the time. It is obvious in my environment. As me, I love to look at people behavior. Because of that I realize all those things. One more things, if a person have not social skills with human beings we will also put them away of us. I always think this is such a cruel thing to do. Why not we try to help them out and make them as a friends. Does not it make sense. Again for me, it does not matter. Let’s we explore more on those thing that I have said above. First, people with no money. As we always heard, no money no talk. Yes, it’s true. But why not we make a friend with this type of person and help them out. Maybe we can give an advice for the best way to find money. I’m not saying that we have to give them money. For the sake of both, just give an advice. Secondly, I’m begging all of you out there, for not to ignore those who has not too good looking. Even me, I always think that no one will not want to be friends with me. Luckily, I have some. Maybe because I’m such a talkative person. But not in context of personality. I can see clearly that I’m just a side friend. What I mean by it is just when in need. Feel sad to hear that. But I try to have one. Sometimes, a person like me, (I mean not good looking) will feel embrace to have a friends. They look down in themselves. We as a friends, need to help them out. Who else would help them?? Next, a quiet person. Obviously, we need approach them. They will not be with us. Hm, I have one. She was very quiet person. She loves to live alone. Even we have a party or other events. She will be in one side and ignore us. We try to approach her. But we failed. She always says that she loves to be alone. What else can we do. We just want her to have comfort. So, we just approach her when need. Guest what?? I have not talk too much to her lately. Just because I feel that she is a person that can be with me. I’m a talkative person, but she??? oh no!!!such a different world. And I’m sure that is her reason to put me away from her life. Lastly. I advice all of you to give a try on all the 3 person that I have mentioned above. You will have some different experience in our life. Believe me it will color your life.

Ok. We start here. Now I’m 20 years old. Even it not that old, but for me, I have earn so much experience that make me more matured. Maybe not much experience as others veteran that more than 60 years old. Just I think for a teenagers like me this is such a big situation that I need to handle that also make me matured in go through this life. It is very difficult to handle two problems in one time. More difficult if the problems related to your family. Like I said before, I always be a counselor during my school time. But suddenly, when I was 18, which I just leave my secondary time and don’t think that I will have to faced this situation. One big problem came into our family. Me and my others sibling had a very difficult time together. We need to think of our family, instead of enjoying our honeymoon time with friends. Suppose we just to focus in our study. Not to think this far. In addition, that time none of my friend that can share the same shoes with me. Most of them say to me that this is a faith. Why it is so difficult for them to understand my situation. I does not ask them to solve my problem. I just need a shoulder that time. Luckily, I have my family. They make me calm and try to think out of the box. Maybe it is because we share a same shoes. Since that, I make a conclusion, “family first, friend will be the last one”. I don’t really understand my friend, when I share my problem with them, that person will act differently as before. At first, I try to avoid the statement. But, after some test on different person I got the same output. Hence I believe 100% on my statement and take my conclusion as a part of my life. You guys surely want to know what I have done to test on my hypothesis. Hahahahaha. At first, I tell my problem to my very best friend. Guest what? It make my hypothesis accepted. Then I try on my old time friend that is not really close, just a door mate for 1 year.Still same result as before. Not supportive at all. Then I try on my ex-classmate. Hurm, she is the only one support me. See!!! Not every best friend is the best for us. So just put away the word of “best friend for ever”, “friends till die” and “friends here and after” or anything else. It actually can’t be expressed with word, it grow silently in our heart. If you guys, don’t believe on me. Try it on your own. Me myself, try to remove all those words from my life and mind. I hate those words. It sometimes make me hurt. =(

all around us...:)

Then, for me, life is depending on environment. When we have a good environment, we will feel good. We will easily get adapted to the environment. Just imagine if we were in a horrible community. It will be difficult for us to cope the environment. Our culture is our life. But, we can actually try to adapt any environment and try to change it to a better culture. We made it. To make people respect our culture, we must respect others culture and make our culture to a best and superb culture. If we don’t have any member that we close to in an environment. As an example, in a small community like class or a club, if we choose wrong member it will make we become more terrible. Here, I will just give a general situation. Soon in my next post, I will write it in a specific situation, to make you more understand on what I’m talking about. So, lastly, for me life will depends on environment very much.

money.....money....MONEY!!!!!!!!

Next my life is depending on money. Like we always heard ‘no money, no talk’. Such an interesting quote. When we don’t have any money, maybe we will die. Because nowadays, everything need to use money. Even to pee we need to pay. If we say, “it’s only 30 cents”. You were wrong. If in one day, we go to public restroom twice, it’s already 60 cents. What with the others. It will make such a big amount. Next, for example, as a student. We already spend about RM10 for our food. No need to talk for the others. You can just imagine what for the others. In this millennium day, I believe we can’t live with only RM100 per month. If we want a money, we must work for it. Not only lay on your bed and wait for the money to fall from your ceiling. It is impossible. The harder you work, the more money you earn. For myself, if I need an extra money, I will sacrifice my day or my rest time to seek for an extra job that can give me money that I need. For example, during a semester break, I will run a small business on homemade chocolates and variety types of bun. Even it is not to profitable, it can help me a little bit on my life. I believe each person have their own way to make money. Is it I’m right? Remember, with our ability, we can make money. Lastly, find a money on a right track. Don’t just simply take a work that profitable but illegal. Blessing is important.

Introduction

          First and foremost, family and friend is the one we depends on more. For me, when we were in such a desperate way, we usually find out our family first to help Why?? Maybe because we were their blood relatives. So, it is difficult for them to put us away when we have such a problem. As me, when I have problem I will find my family first. I feel easy to talk when them rather than with friends. Friends usually be a place for me to laugh and have a joy. Not to cry together and have a sadness together. I can take responsible when my friends need me to talk to and maybe to share their problem with me. Since primary school, I always be a counselor to my friends. But, I hate to share my problems with them. It is not that I arrogant, it just, I think they also have a problem. I don’t want to messy their life with my friend. In opinion, if we have a problem, find a suitable friends to talk to. For examples, when we have a problem related to our family, try to find someone that is also in our family. Maybe they will understand us the most. They can easily put themselves to our shoes, and help to solve it, or maybe help us to release a little bit. Next, if we have a problems related to a friends, we need to find a friends. It is because they share the same situation as us. But remember not to find the wrong one. Because they maybe will not solve our problem, but they will add on our problems. Doesn’t it is call a disaster?? Why we have to mess up ourselves? We already have a problem need to solve up. So, choose the right one. Again for me, we need to find a person that were in the same shoes with us. It will make it more easier.